The Land of Dreamy Dreams by Ellen Gilchrist
Finished June 29, 2012

I am reading books like a machine. And I am making certain I do other things in my day besides read, like garden, visit the library, cook and then read. Cleaning? Not so much. Joe has been gone for a couple of days, since Tueday morning which has given me ample time to read and write my Mom a letter a day.

I have fallen in love with Ellen Gilchrist. I finished her book The Anna Papers the other day and it had an immense affect on me. I became possessed or in a state of grace. Something grabbed ahold of me and made me realize that one can not live ones life in the shadows of their true self. I am so afraid that someone will find me out. Aways have been that way. From stealing dimes and nickles from my parents pockets and pocker books to the stealing of a red cream soda for Nana from the corner store and the lady following me out of the store and just taking the bottle from the carton without a word and going back into the store. The humilation and the worry that someone would know.

But in all reality they probably all did know that Mary was a little theif. After all Brenda Angel and I had to run away from home rather than face the consquences of being caught stealing from the Five and Dime downtown. Oh the agony of that!!